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By Matthew Robert Payne Its a hard process writing for this ezine and putting my words down on a page that might one day be published in a book, This week I did a four part series on what life on earth would look on earth, according to what Paul wrote to Timothy. As I wrote about the sins listed I explained them. If I found it easy, it is because they all existed in my life from time to time, and after I posted the whole series I fell into a depression, knowing that I am a preacher whose own life is a mess. Sometimes I look at the story about the young rich ruler that met Jesus and I look at myself. Jesus rattled off a number of commandments and this guy answered that he had kept all of them from his youth. Guys I have to admit something; I never kept all the commandments that the guy had kept. But this guy had. If you are honest with yourself you have not kept them, and youll have to admit most of you would not sell all you own to possess Jesus like he hinted in the pearl collector parable, and the parable of the hidden treasurer in the field. I am a big sinner. I have no assets and I am poor. I am one person that could really use someone having pity on me, and I know when I read Scripture it does not make me feel good. Most often it makes me feel bad. The Scriptures strip me clean and the Holy Spirit draws me to repent in tears and convicts me to change. I have an enemy that I have a hard time to forgive. I have unresolved sins. I have idols that I give time to and less of my heart then goes to Jesus. I have films that I love more then Jesus. I have things that I do that if Jesus told me to give up I would struggle to give up. I am so full of sin that its a miracle that Jesus forgives me and even inspired me to write. I am tough on my readers and this comes from being tough on myself. I am guilty of much of what I preach and so can illustrate it. I am telling you all to change, when I do the same thing and I am a hypocrite. I am like a Pharisee of Jesus’ time, and yet I am better because on paper I am admitting it and Jesus is helping me. Dont freak out with what I suggest and what I preach online then. Dont look at my life as an example. Look to the message and let the Word of God convict you and go on and change. Jesus said for people to do what the Pharisees taught, but not to do what they did. The same goes for me, dont be as bad as me, and take my advice as I am writing it for myself more then for you. May you be blessed as you read my longer articles. Love Matthew Matthew writes online here and can be contacted online at http://www.online-prayer.net You can read more of his articles at the link below. Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/?expert=Matthew_Robert_Payne http://EzineArticles.com/?How-a-Hypocrite-Like-Me-Can-Convict-You-and-Do-You-Good!&id=359159 payday loan mesa arizona no checking account required payday loans personal secured loan no fax payday